i hate sitcoms

i have spent the whole day writing a crappy sitcom.

it actually might be genius, but i've struggled and spent hours eating cookies and needing a shower and struggling some more and finding everything not funny and even more plain bad.

this is the second worst part of being a writer. the worst is when someone says your writing isn't good. the second worst is when you say your writing isn't good. the latter is much more common. even if everyone thinks your writing sucks, i'm sure the inner critic talks much more than all those people.

i have enough experience to know that in a few days, with some time away from it, i'll love it. or at least might love it. could just think it's okay. but i will likely find it better than how i feel about it now.

but i am not there.

i blame sitcoms in general.

my brain is mush and i'm bleeding from random parts of my body. i think i scratch while re-reading.

i'm hungry and dehydrated. time for some chinese food and sleep.